Figuring Shit Out.

Well, I need a place to work out my life and how I feel and all that nonsense. Why not here? You can join if you like. :)  

I recently turned twenty and I felt like a bus hit me. I am old now, I have to go out and do things on my own. I’ll be pushed out into the real world this July when my contract is up and I’ll have already graduated from the conservatory that I am attending currently. I am scared shitless. Sometime’s I’m sure that I’ll never make it. I have heard this many times from a wide scope of people, if you can imagine yourself doing any other profession than acting go do that. I honestly can’t recall a time that I have ever wanted to stray from acting, ever, I can’t help but think that I was meant to do great things. Do many people imagine that they were meant to do great things? I can’t imagine people in trailer parks felt that they would go on to do  wondrous things, to cure cancer, but I guess stranger things have happened… But I do really believe that I was meant to go on and do great things. Sometimes I think I see the world in different colored glasses than everyone else. (No they are not rose colored.) I just want to work, have friends, find love, and be happy. That’s a tall order I know. But I’m ready to start.